I saw everything as it happened. These guys walked in and scanned the place. They settled their sights on the dumbfucks who were annoying the other customers and opened fire on them. None of the bastards survived.

Nooooo! I'm just fucking with you. Those guys did walk in and scan the place, but they didn't shoot anyone. One of the guys pointed out the woman who was sitting a couple of tables away from me. They looked at her and talked amongst themselves before dispersing. The guy who did the pointing, walked towards the woman, while his friends grabbed one of the open booths and watched.

The woman seemed surprised to see the guy. She was even more surprised when he knelt down on one knee. I looked back at his friends in the booth and saw that they were video taping this for him. He looked at the woman and in a voice loud enough for whole deli to hear, he begged the woman to leave him alone and quit stalking him.

No shit! That's exactly what he said or pretty much close to it. When he knelt down, I think everyone in the deli, with the exception of his friends, thought he was going to propose. Even the woman. She had a bewildered look on her face when he knelt down, but as soon as he said those things and got up, that look of bewilderment turned into a scowl. Especially after his friends erupted in laughter and she saw that they were filming her. I shared in her dismay and even more than that, I wanted to kick the guy's balls for humiliating her like that, but I told myself that it would be the wrong thing to do.

I do that when I'm tired. I remind myself what is right and what is wrong. I do that so I won't get myself into trouble. I've been fighting exhaustion and I've reached the point of delirium several times within the past few days. I feel so helpless. It's like when I was working all the time and I had to make a decision about Kevin. It's like that again. I have so many things running through my head and I don't know what to do. I wish I could just pick up the phone and call Mrs. Sheridan for the answers. She was right about Kevin and I fucked that up, but I swear, I won't fuck up again if she just comes back and tells me what to do. Yet, I know that's impossible because she's gone forever. She had so much wisdom and I took it for granted that she would always be here to help me through stuff like this. I really miss her.

Talk show guests for tomorrow, Friday August 6th
Conan O'Brien: Jada Pinkett-Smith, Sahara Hotnights
Craig Kilborn: Ron Livingston, Rhys Ifans, Akon
David Letterman: Gen. Tommy Franks, Greg Giraldo
Ellen DeGeneres: Kate Hudson, Julian McMahon (R)
Jay Leno: Arnold Schwarzenegger, Steve-O, Chris Pontius, Gavin DeGraw
Jimmy Kimmel: David Arquette, Kaley Cuoco, Alan Brenner (R)
Last Call: Justine Bateman, Freddy Rodriguez, Jarod Miller, the Shore
Regis and Kelly: Jada Pinkett Smith
Sharon Osbourne: Jimmy Kimmel, Eric Winter, Lit (R)
The View: Tom Cruise, Brittany Murphy